My Legacy

I am my fathers daughter, no doubt about that!! I have been called little Bourque for as long as I can remember and have never been prouder than to carry his name. It is no secret that I am a Daddy's girl, however October 25, 2010 the Lord suddenly took him home. I was left exposed, raw, heartbroken, confused and lost. One thing I did know I had 2 choices... to run, or run to. I chose the latter which was run towards God and follow His will.. a treasured legacy. One year has now come and gone since he passed and the grasp on a new life is starting to come within reach. Still raw, still pain, still without a father but now I am driven to pursue what I know he wanted for me.. I am his treasure and he gave me my legacy, I will make him proud. This is my attempt to start this new year embracing life and living to the fullest, experience everything I can and challenge myself to become better. I have many areas in my life that need improving and I am tackling them one at a time, going into year two brings many new things. The first holidays without him are over but I am finding more often than not that the reality that he is gone still catches me by surprise. I hurt daily over the lost but I am trying to funnel that into a drive to be the daughter he believed in, love, envisioned and NEVER gave up on. That is my legacy, that is my calling and that is what I want to be. I want to become the girl in his eyes, the one that always did wrong but lol some how he kept hoping, believing and knowing my potential. I am strong, independent, hard as nails, forgiving, compassionate, a servant, strong willed, "always right", outgoing, funny and a lover. All my goodness comes from GREAT parents and I am truly blessed to have been given such great examples to live my life. I ran my own way for most of my life but the tides have turned and now its time to give back what God gave me. I know as much as daddy loved me, my heavenly father loves me so much more and with both of them looking down on me the pressure is on. I have my husband here, my beloved mother who is becoming my best friend and my paw-paw that I cherish dearly and want to do good by them as well. Moving back to La to be here for Mom was the best thing I could have done and I know daddy knew I would. I feel entrusted with the responsibility to keep her safe, loved and her to know more than anything I am here for her. We have learned so much together this year and for that I am so grateful.
I am learning but most importantly I am living. Really living, or learning too :) at least at this point. So stay tuned because this is me and my treasured legacy in the making.............